See You on Monday...

 See You on Monday... In NYC!

It's been a big week. I'm moving from St. Louis, MO to New York City. I think we all can imagine how stark of a difference that's going to be. I would be lying if I said I was at peace with it. I'm leaving my family, my girlfriend, and the place that I have lived my entire life. It's not easy to say goodbye. I thought I would be okay because I know I'll be back in St. Louis at the very least once every couple of months. I know this has been my dream since I was 15 years old. I know I love NYC and all the opportunity it holds. But none of that makes it easier. It just doesn't. There's a safety net in St. Louis. There's love, familiarity, comfort, home, care, and so much more. But I also know that if I didn't move to New York now, I would regret it for the rest of my life. I don't want to be 40 years old looking back, wondering why I didn't follow my dreams. If I didn't do this I would be letting myself down and all the people that supported me for almost a decade, and some my whole life. I've cried every day for the past few weeks, but the tears don't feel hopeless. They feel scared, excited, nervous, exhilarating, anxious, and hopeful. It's so many emotions all in one. There's opportunity in NYC and there's my dreams and my goals and my future. It's all there and I'm going to go there, no matter how scared or nervous I am, and make myself and everyone around me proud. I'm going to achieve my dreams and my goals and do what I do best. I already have an audition for Tuesday. I have 3 job interviews lined up. I have loving and caring roommates. I have a lot of friends already living there. There is a bright light at the end of this sunken feeling. It won't be easy, but it will be fulfilling and when it's all said and done, I won't look back with regret. I'll look back with fond memories of where I started and where I'm going.

Thanks for Sitting with me on the Sidelines,

Zeke H. Bennett